Normally i love this time of year, I’m normally buzzing with excitement and i would be the first one to put up the Christmas decorations, but not this year. This is the first time i have even sat and thought about Christmas. I feel nothing, just completely empty, i don’t want to join in the festivities when i feel so alone and miss someone so much.
I love my family and of course i know how lucky i am to have them, i know they will do their upmost to make it perfect for me. However it won’t take the heartbreak or loneliness away. If you have ever experienced true loneliness you’ll understand how i feel, that famous line “you can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely”
In all honesty i just want Christmas to come and go as quickly as possible.