Oh my god, I actually managed to stay out without having a panic attack and having to come home!
The only time it all hit me was about an hour before I had to leave, all the anxiety started and I could feel the panic rising, I had a few tears but just managed to catch myself from spiralling. Instead of getting myself into a state, I put my Calm app on and did my breathing exercises – and it fucking worked.
I also didn’t feel any pressure to get drunk, i didn’t get drunk. I only had a couple of drinks and stuck to water. I felt in control of my anxiety for the first time in a long, long time.
You can see below how proud I am from the grin on my face (left). Happy Christmas Eve everyone.