2017 is approaching and today i have been feeling quite stressed out about my future. I will be 25 next year and im now in the position i ever thought id be back in – back at home with my parents. I love living here and i am so lucky, but i have been so ashamed to tell everyone i am living back at home, that i failed and here i am an over grown teenager back with mum and dad. I loved my own place so much, i miss it every single day. I have worked out 3 options that i need to really think about to decide what the hell am i going to do with my life?!
Moving back out next year with a friend. I feel this would be good in some ways as i would get my independence back, and it would be socially good for me. But to be honest, i think it would make me extremely depressed having to share with someone after i have lived the dream of living in my own flat with the man i loved. I also wouldn’t be able to save, and living with a friend would only be a temporary thing, my anxiety would forever be thinking “what am i going to do next”.
I have worked out if i stay at home for another year, i can save around 13 thousand pounds (it would mean sacrificing a lot, but it might be my only time in my life to be able to save such a large amount of money), which in the future would be a massive chunk towards a deposit on my own place. I would be quite happy to live on my own, and would feel so proud to have made myself financially secure. I would just be worried to tell people i am still living at home in a years time?
My last option – go travelling. I could save for 6 months and then have enough to go travelling, i have always wanted to see the world for myself, my anxiety just always holds me back. I don’t have anyone to go with either which used to always scare me, but now i am used to my own company, it doesn’t scare me so much. I just don’t know if i have got enough courage in me to just do it. I would also be worried about when the dream ends – then what do i do? I’d probably still have to live at home and financially i wouldn’t be in a good position, i’d have to start all over again, or maybe i’d never come back!? equally this could be my only chance to go travelling?
I just feel so lost, i want to make the right decision but I’m just really not sure what is going to be best for my future? someone please help! what would you do?