Words can’t even describe how horrible last night was. So first of all I manage to control my anxiety and go out in the first place, face everything that I hate in aid to “have a good night like everyone else”
First of all my friend gets pushed backwards over a table and mugged, she didn’t do anything at all, she was just stood next to ‘their table’ , we are then separated in all the chaos, this obviously set off a panic attack straight away, so I went outside to find her – to then be attacked by the same two people. They grabbed me by the throat, threw me on the road and kicked me to a pulp, for absolutely no reason at all! I did drink last night, but I was by no means insanely drunk. What is wrong with people?
I’ve never been so terrified in my entire life. When someone finally came to help me, i had a complete nervous break down, I was retching but not actually being sick, I literally didn’t know what to do – not one person was picking up their phone, I was in a complete state of shock and despair. I literally sat there and thought “I’ve got no one in the world to look after me right now”
Finally my brother made contact with me and I did get home safe (and my friend is ok) but I am completely battered and bruised. I’m lucky i didn’t get badly hurt. But could life actually get any worse? What did I do to deserve this? This will damage my confidence forever and somehow my anxiety isn’t going to get over this very well. Just as I was feeling positive and trying to be at peace for the new year ahead, I get completely knocked down (literally). Happy new year everyone.